I love my city, but I don't see myself staying here forever. I love the slurs of the Geordie accents when I pass through the streets in town, I love the nightlife and how pretty the Quayside is. I love the hidden parts of the city centre just as much as the tourist parts, but I'm in a constant love-hate relationship with Newcastle and I think I always will be.
At the moment I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing with my life. This time next year I will have hopefully graduated with a degree in Journalism, a subject I'm not even sure I want to pursue anymore, and I'll be looking for jobs and any experience I can get my hands on. None of which is likely to be in Newcastle though, because most opportunities are down in the South of England and I'm in the North East. That doesn't bother me, what bothers me is that I don't actually know what I want to do. I have so many ideas and so many things I want to try, but I never do. In the back of my mind I always think that someone else could do them better and so it would be pointless for me to try. I know that's wrong, and ultimately a negative way of thinking, but I just can't seem to shift that sense of uncertainty in myself.
I whole-heartedly believe that if you work for something hard enough, and if you're doing it for the right reasons you will succeed in whatever path you choose to take. I think across these next few months I'm going to have to throw myself into opportunities, even if they're a little bit out of my comfort zone. I need to plan, I need to network, I need to work and then I need to work harder. That's the only way I honestly believe I'm going to get anywhere, otherwise I will end up staying in Newcastle for the rest of my life.
“Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts."
Have a wonderful weekend!
Lovely post :) I did a degree in journalism two years ago and I'm also undecided on what I want to do! The good thing about journalism, though, is that it gives you skills you can use in any job!
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm exactly the same with Newcastle. I looked at your photos and felt a bit of a pang in my stomach. I grew up not far away from Newcastle so I think of it fondly, but whenever I visit I'm a bit disappointed!
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Ah, I'm glad I'm not the only one. Yeah, it's definitely a good thing that journalism gives you skills that you can use in a range of different careers, that's one of the only positives of continuing my studies ha.
DeleteA constant love-hate relationship ey. Hopefully if I eventually move and come home to visit, I'll appreciate it even more :) x
I love this post, Bekka. It really resonated with me. I feel like it's so relevant to anyone from the North East who aspires to go on to bigger and better things. I'm also torn between my love for Newcastle and my hate for it.
ReplyDeleteAnd I think we're also in the same boat when it comes to most of our job opportunities being down South or elsewhere in the world. You're a hard worker though; that's abundantly clear. If anyone's going to be a success one day, it's certainly you.
Hope you're having a great weekend :)
Thanks! I guess it's just one of those things that a lot of people have to deal with, it's just certainly hitting me a lot harder than it usually would.
DeleteThank you for the kind words, I can definitely say the same for you and your nine million projects :) x
Wonderful, heartfelt blog post! I'm in a similar boat as you -- I'm about to graduate with a masters degree in creative writing and while I do want to be in that field, I'm not sure where in the publishing industry I want to be or what job I really want. I've decided that I'll just search for a job and sees what lands in my lap. If I like it I'll stick with it, if I don't I'll find something better.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with your job search too! I hope you find something you love!
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Thank you so much! It's a little bit crazy sometimes isn't it. I think that sounds like a good plan, and best of luck to you too! x
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Ahhh lovely pictures of Newcastle! You're a damn sight more long-sighted than I was, I didn't even think about careers until I was unemployed at the end of my degree. I didn't even plan the job I'm in now, so at least you can be safe in the knowledge that somethings just happen, even if you're unsure. Diving head first in is certainly setting you on the right road for your future! xx
ReplyDeleteThanks! I don't think it's a case of being long-sighted, as I prefer to be quite spontaneous, just at the moment I feel like because I don't know what I want to be doing, that I'm just wasting my time so I'm trying to make up for it by planning things hah! x
DeleteYour city looks beautiful and vibrant, I can see why you love it so much! There is nothing wrong with leaving what you know, it's all part of the growing process ♥
ReplyDeleteBeautiful quote! Love the photos!
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DeleteGirl, I really get where you're coming from with pretty much everything you're saying in this post. Like really, really get it. I feel like this all the time. About the city where I live that I both love and am embarrassed by, about all the things I'm interested in and love but don't think I'm really good enough to be successful. I suppose the good news is that you look like you're probably doing much better than you're aware of. You're very talented; for example, these pictures are beatufil, and your blog is lovely.
ReplyDeleteI'd love to stick around. Good luck. :)
I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels like this then! I guess sometimes things can just get on top of you and when you're battling with not liking your city and not feeling like you're good enough to be successful things just draw a blank. Makes me feel a little better to know that I'm not the only one, and thanks for being so lovely about my photos and blog! :) x
DeleteGood luck with your future! Having the world so wide open to you is terrifying but also exciting. Embrace it! You will work everything out in your own time. We all go through this, just don't give up or give in. It's exciting not exactly knowing what comes next.
ReplyDeleteOh I know where you are coming from completely. Just think of it as an opportunity, after finishing your degree you have the chance to apply for anything, move anywhere. A blog is a big step towards networking, just get out there and grasp what you want!
ReplyDeleteYou're so right about career oppourtinities in Newcastle!
ReplyDeleteI don't know what I want to do with my life, maybe something in fashion, but it's not easy to do when you live in a place like here and that's sad because I love it and all the people I love are here too, I wish there were more options :( xxx